A DenXNor Songfic, By: NyoNorway
A love story between Lukas Bondevik (Norway) and Mathias Kohler (Denmark) Lets see what happens yes? Does not own hetalia but I do own the plot of this fanfic. Does not own song but Adele owns it. (Warning: Sadness and Fluff)
Chapter 1: Chapter Name
Lately Lukas have been ignoring the danish man he knows as Mathias Kohler. Mathias grew worrid for his so called "friend" wanting to know what he had done to make him so upset at him. Sure Mathias knew that he liked Lukas in more of a romantic way than a friend, but knowing Lukas thought he was quote on quote "Annoying" and or "Stupid". Mathias thought Lukas hated him for that and tried to be less of a bother for him; but the more Mathias tried the more Lukas ignored him. Soon Lukas stopped talking to the danish man and continued on with his life. Mathias called Lukas every week, missing the time they spent together, missing how Lukas would pull his tie, missing Lukas himself.
Hello.. It's me..
After three years Lukas never responded to Mathias's calls though he heared them, he dident know what to say... Lukas missed how childish and absentminded Mathias was... but as Lukas remembered this he thought Mathias hated him by now... That he probably would forget about Lukas and continue on with his life.. That Mathias dident have the same feelings for Lukas as Lukas was in love with him... though he may have thought this.. it was the compleate opposite..
I was wondering if afterall these years you like to meet, to go over everything...
Mathias missed Lukas so much, he wondered what have he done to make Lukas not talk to him at all, so he continued to call him but never got a reasponce. He was going to visit Lukas but thought Lukas hated him and dident want to see him.. so he just sat at home.. drinking his sorrows away.. Soon Mathias thought it was enough and about time for him to confess to Lukas or at least call him one more time before heading over.
They say that time is suppose to heal ya but I aint done much healing...
Lukas got another call from Mathias saying he was finally going to come over, soon Lukas hid in his room and brought his knee's to his face as he weeped silently, reapeating apologies and reminding himself about everything that he hates.. even himself..
Hello... can you hear me..? I'm in california dreaming about who we used to be... when we were younger and free..
Mathias wanted to see Lukas, though he was in califonia because his friend Alfred wanted to cheer him up... that dident work out so well... now Mathias is on a plane to go back home, where his beloved Lukas was... He couldent wait to see him.. though he was a bit nervous.. maybe he dident want to see him.. maybe he would be disgusted with the dane's arival.. or maybe he would actually want to see him.. he continued to think about all of the possibilities as the plane took off..
I've forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet... there's such a difference between us.. and a million miles...
Lukas knew that Mathias was coming but dident want to see him... not in the state that he was in... Sure he missed Mathias but his house was a mess and he was crying in a corner in his room.. yea he dident want Mathias to see this very.. emotional side of him due to the reason he hated showing emotion.. he thought emotion was a waste of time but still... he had feelings.. and the only emotion he felt right now.. was depression...
Hello from the other side.. I must've called a thousand times to tell you I'm sorry for everything that I've done but when I call you never seem to be home..
Soon the plane landded and Mathias was off, before calling Lukas once more and ariving at his home.. Mathias then went to his home as a sigh escaped his lips and he walked to his own house... going to make something for Lukas before he left.. Soon he was in his house and in the kitchen making a dish mostly known as Smorrebrod.
Hello from the outside.. At least I can say that I tried to tell you I'm sorry for breaking you're heart... but it dont matter it clearly doesent tear you apart anymore..
Lukas continued to cry not caring anymore about the dane only now telling lies to himself as he just sat there, his face buried in his knees as he tried to calm himself down.. now only sitting there hugging his knees and thinking..
Hello.. how are you? It's so typical of me to talk about myself I'm sorry.. I hope.. that you're well... did you ever make it out of that town where nothing ever happened..?
Soon Mathias was done perpparing the meal and wraped it up, soon heading out to Lukas's house.. He then knocked on the door and it opened.. looking around he gasped at the sight of the house, there was dust everywhere, books and papers scattered all on the floor, it looked as if no one lived there for ages.. then he walked around plate in hand.. searching for Lukas but he could not be found, siging he listoned for anything and then heared sniffles coming from the room upstairs.. quickly he hurried toward the room saying with a idiotic grin on his face "Hey Norge!! I made you some Smorrebrod!" he then walked into the room, immedeately dropping the plate of food to the floor and his grin soon turning into a frown as he ran over to his Norwegian crush. "L-Lukas..!?"
So hello from the other side... I must have called a thousand times to tell you I'm sorry.. for everything that I've done... but when I called you never seem to be home..
Lukas heared Mathias and hoped he dident find him, soon heaing the dane at the door he held his legs even closer to his face. Then hearing something made of glass shatter and hearing the footsteps of his danish crush run to him he began to have anxiety though he barely showed it on the outside. "W-what is it dane..!?" he asked in an audible yet calm and teary tone.
Hello from the outside.. At least I can say that I tried to tell you I'm sorry.. for breaking you're heart but it dont matter.. it clealy doesent tear you apart anymore..
Mathias looked at the norwegian shock obviously written on his face, "A-are you.. crying..!?" was the only thing that came to his mind, he then said with concern laced within every word "What happened!?" He then hugged him from the side wrapping his arms around the norwegian, bringing him in a warm embrace.
Lukas started to panic, what should he say? what should he say? then he said what first came to his mind. "W-why would I be crying..!?" he asked repeating the words in his head and automatically slapping himself in his head. He then continued to hide his face not wanting the dane to know he was crying "..I'm f-fine Mathias.." he said his voice shaking slightly.
Mathias soon narrowed his eyes as he heared Lukas's shaky voice.. since when was his voice ever shaky.. he then knew Lukas was lieing and stated "Don't lie to me Norge!! Just tell me what happened already!" he demanded in a Oh-so-serious tone, bringing the norwegian closer to his body.
Lukas thought for a moment as he shoved Mathias away from him, soon looking the dane in the eyes, his navy meeting blue. Lukas's eyes were red and puffy from crying, some more teas escaped from his sockets and slid down his pale cheeks. "I'm ok.." he stated once more.
Mathias's eyes widened as he shook his head gently "You're obveously not!!" He then wiped the norwegian's tears away gently and loving, then once again bringing him into another warm embrace. Did I do all of this.. did I make him feel like this.. he thought as he held Lukas
Hello from the otherside..
Lukas sighed softly as his heat beated gently.. why was this happening again... why is he hugging me.. he doesnt care about me... he thought as he dident hug the danish man back.. he just kept his face on his chest, hearing the danes soothing heart beat as tears once again came out of his eyes and stained Mathias's shirt.
I've must have called a thousand times..
Soon Mathias interupted the calm silence "Lukas.. you can tell me everything.. and you know that!" he then put one of his hands on Lukas's head while the other stay put around his waist..
To tell you I'm sorry..
Lukas dident know what to say.. should I tell him the truth.. or how I feel... he thought as he answered "I.." he thought for a moment and then spoke up again "What would you do.. if I told you.. that I wanted to die...!?" he asked readying himself fo what he had to say, soon hiding his face into the danish mans chest even more..
For everything that I've done..
Mathias looked puzzeled he.. wants to die... he thought as tears almost welded up in his eyes but he held them back taking a deep breath and says ".. B-but why the hell would you think of doing something like that..!?" he asked shock becoming a common feature on his face.
But when I call you never..
Lukas wanted to tell him but dident know how.. so he sat there quietly as the dane got anxious.. soon he closed his eyes as the feeling of depression consumed his body and mind..
..Seem to be home..
Mathias got worried and wanted to know more soon shaking Lukas back and forth gently while saying "Just answer me already!" he stopped shaking Lukas and said in a sad tone "Please.. Lukas.."
Hello from the outside..
Lukas finally got the courage to speak only to say "You.. If I diead.. you would just probably keep on with you're life without a care in the world.. because.. nobody cares whether I die or not..." he then opened his eyes meeting the danes blue eyes to his surprise they looked angry..
At least I can say that I've tried..
Matthias's eye twitched as he sighed in irritation.. why does he keep talking about death.. he thought as he began to shake Lukas back and forth violantly "Stop saying that Lukas!! It's not true! Were all there for you I.." he stopped talking not tying to confess yet..instead said "I wouldent know what I'd do without you!" he continued to shake Lukas absentmindedly.
To tell you..
Lukas started to get irritated at the danish man as he continued to violently shake him, soon Lukas used at of his strength to pin Mathias to his bed which was nearby, he then looked at Mathias annoyence and ange clearly shown on his face, he then yelled at him. "BUT YOU DONT CARE! I KNOW YOU DONT! I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE! IT HURTS TO LIVE LIKE THIS!" He knew it was the right time to confess, he soon lowered his voice and looked into the danes eyes with a sad but loving look. "I.. I love you Mathias.. but you dont love me.." he then released his grip and stood up, instead of looking at him he looked at the wall in his room.
Mathias seemed shocked at the moment.. he dident know that Lukas was that strong neither did he expect to be pinned down and yelled at by him but... then being confessed to... by his crush... h-he loves me... he thought as he layed there, soon sitting up and looking at his crush.. he was speachless. "..You.. love... me!?" his cheeks soon dusted with pink as he knew he had to confess also. "B-but Noge! You're the person I care about the most!! And I..I..I may be loving you too.." his blush soon encreassed tuning a dark red as he looked down at his feet and realizing what he had just said.
..For breaking you'e heart..
Lukas eyes widened his heart spead up rapidly as he thought.. H-he said he loved me back.. soon he looked at Mathias this time the one with the shocked expression "You.. you love me.." next thing he know is that he is hugging his soon to be boyfriend.
But it dont matter..
Mathias's heart sped up as he was hugged by Lukas soon he nodded as his blush turned a scalet, tears welding into his eyes "I'm sorry I dident tell you how I felt earlier.." he apologized feeling bad as he held Lukas to his chest never wanting to let go, almost starting to cry.
Lukas smiled a small but unique smile he chukled softly as he wiped the danes tears away "Its okay.. you dont need to cry.." he stated clearly hating whenever Mathias cries, he dident know what to do because he doesent confort others easily. So he did what he thought was nessesary and kissed Mathias gently. The kiss then stopped as Mathias smiled at his boyfriend. "I really love you, Lukas" he said still having some tears in his eyes, Lukas chuckled "I love you too you goofball." soon Lukas was brought into another embrace by Mathias as he said "I'll never let you go, because you are mine now." he smiked as Lukas rolled his eyes playfully
Doesn't tear you apart anymore..